Liverpool star Adam Lallana has told BBC Sport that he doesn't know how he will be able to play against Southampton this weekend.
Lallana spent 14 years with the Saints earlier in his career, progressing from a young hopeful to a world-class talent, and he admits that it will be hugely difficult to play against a side he has such an affinity to.
Lallana only moved to Liverpool last summer, making this the first time he has played at St. Mary's since, and he expects it to be a challenging occasion.
The England international has not had the desired impact at Liverpool so far, but despite his struggles he says he will not celebrate if he does find the back of the net.
"Of course not," he responded, when asked whether he would celebrate if he scored. "I've got huge respect for the club, part of me doesn't even know how I'm going to play. It's all a bit surreal, I just have to be professional and play well for Liverpool. I've got too much respect to celebrate."
It is a classy touch from Lallana, who has received some criticism from Southampton supporters for the way he left the club.
Saints fans accused Lallana of forcing through his move to Liverpool and it appeared to be a transfer with led a mass exodus from the club.
Southampton lost a number of their key players over the summer, but they responded brilliantly and Lallana is currently having to look up the Premier League table to see his old side.
The Saints are mounting a sustained challenge to make it into the top four and if they are able to come out on top against Liverpool it will boost their chances considerably.