Nicole Scherzinger will use her new album to address her eating disorder. Big Fat Lie takes its title from the singer’s battle with bulimia, helping Scherzinger to “create something beautiful from ... something that wasn’t once so beautiful”.
“I think we all have our own big fat lies,” Scherzinger explained in an interview with Digital Spy. “[I have been] battling with an eating disorder for many years and recently, in the past few years, it’s come out and people were talking to me about that ... [That fight] is a big part of who I am and what has gotten me here. And what has gotten me to this place of strength.”
Scherzinger recalled sitting down with one of her producers, the-Dream, to make sure that this perspective made it on to the album. “Facing [these] issues head-on is what has gotten me to my most authentic place now,” she said. “I realised that, even though it was a hard subject for me to talk about, when I did I was able to help other people and inspire other people battling any disorders or any diseases themselves.” For the former X Factor judge, singing about her troubles has become a kind of “therapy”.
Scherzinger, who is 36, first opened up about her eating disorder in a 2012 episode of VH1’s Behind the Music. “My bulimia was my addiction,” she said. She revealed that she had been suffering from the condition since around 2004, when she joined the Pussycat Dolls. “I [threw up] every day for, like, years,” she said. “I was in a group, and I never felt so alone in my life ... Every time I had a second to be alone, I was doing something to myself. [People with bulimia] get, like, blisters on [their] hands or scars on [their] hands, and I’d try to hide those. I think the girls could tell.”
With her upcoming second solo album and West End stage debut, Scherzinger said she has finally found “clarity and acceptance” in her life. “I guess it’s me finally being comfortable and confident enough in my skin where I’m able to really talk about some of the things that I always concealed,” she said. “This is me finally being revealed.”
Big Fat Lie will be released on 20 October. Its lead single, Your Love, reached No 6 on the UK singles chart.
This article was written by Sean Michaels, for theguardian.com on Friday 3rd October 2014 10.58 Europe/Londonguardian.co.uk © Guardian News and Media Limited 2010